Whether you have suffered a miscarriage or carried your baby full-term, child loss is equally anguishing. Turning to God throughout this trial is a must. When you have no peace, trust in the One Who is everlasting Peace. When you have no stability, trust the One Who created the world. When you no longer have the strength to step out of bed in the morning, trust the One Who is everlasting Strength.
As I grieve my babies who are in Heaven, I continually remember God’s promises in His word about trials. I remember a specific instance when I was depressed about Hadassah’s death. I was so depressed that I literally felt weighed down, my body slumping while I vegetated on the couch.
I had never felt so helplessly desperate, so bullied by my circumstances. Only two things kept me from drifting into deep, black despair, the kind of despair that makes some go insane.
Those two things were talking to my husband and remembering God’s promises. I thought about several verses, one of which was 1 Corinthians 10:13.
It says, “There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.”
At this point in my life, I was tempted to let grief grab my shirt collar and breathe down my neck for the rest of my life. I had to think that God knew something more than I did. That He saw some strength in me that I couldn’t even see in myself.
Oh, I questioned God. Don’t think for a minute that I didn’t. “God, why did you think I could handle this? I don’t want to handle this!”
But He was teaching me while I was slouched on my couch. He was teaching me that I couldn’t do any of this life stuff without Him.
Another verse that I really had to tuck away inside my heart was Isaiah 26:3-4. “Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on Thee, for he trusteth in Thee. Trust ye in the Lord forever, for in the Lord Jehovah is everlasting strength.”
Perfect peace. There I was, toppling over like an uprooted tree in a storm, when I had access to perfect peace. I had to access it through a mind concentrated on Christ, though, and my mind was concentrated on myself.
You know what happened? As soon as I asked, “Lord, what is your purpose for my daughter’s death? What do you want me to do about it?” and asked this question with genuine interest in finding the path that God wanted, I found what I desperately needed. No fingers pointing at God for His alleged thievery in my life.
Once I humbled myself before Him and accepted the way that He had chosen for me, I had that peace. Perfect peace. Aaahhh. He had given me purpose through His Word.
What verses helped you through your trial?
by Sarah George